neologistic logorrhea

 

Dear Readers,

It feels surreal to be sitting down to write to you again after what feels like an eternity. If you've been wondering where I've been, why the blog seemed to go silent, and what's been happening in my world, let me assure you, there's been a whirlwind of change, growth, and reflection.

Life has a curious way of leading us down unexpected paths, doesn't it? When I last wrote to you, I couldn't have predicted the twists and turns that awaited me. But here I am, ready to share with you the highlights of my journey during this long absence.

Firstly, let me express my heartfelt gratitude for your patience and understanding. Your messages of support and inquiries about my well-being have meant the world to me. Your presence, even in my absence, has been a guiding light during some of the darkest moments.

So, what have I been up to? Well, to put it simply, everything and nothing all at once. Life has a way of unfolding in ways we never expect.

On a personal level, I've delved deep into introspection and self-discovery. I've confronted fears, wrestled with doubts, and emerged on the other side with a newfound sense of clarity and purpose. The journey inward is never easy, but it's always worth it.

In terms of the world around us, oh, how much has changed! The past few years have been a rollercoaster of global events, from political upheavals to societal shifts to the ongoing pandemic. Navigating these turbulent waters has been a test of resilience for us all, but it's also been a catalyst for growth and adaptation.

But amidst the chaos and uncertainty, there have been moments of beauty and hope. Communities coming together to support one another, individuals finding strength in solidarity, and acts of kindness that remind us of the inherent goodness in humanity.

As I reflect on my journey and the changes that have unfolded, I'm reminded of the resilience of the human spirit. We are capable of weathering any storm, of rising from the ashes stronger and more determined than ever before. And while the road ahead may be fraught with challenges, I face it with optimism and courage, knowing that we are all in this together.

So, where do we go from here? Well, that's the exciting part, isn't it? The possibilities are endless, the horizon stretching out before us like a blank canvas waiting to be painted with the colors of our dreams and aspirations.

As I recommit myself to this blog and to you, my dear readers, I do so with a renewed sense of purpose and passion. Together, let's embark on this journey of discovery, growth, and connection. Let's inspire one another, support one another, and above all, let's remind each other that no matter how far we may stray, we are never alone.

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me. Here's to new beginnings, to embracing change, and to the boundless possibilities that await us.

With love and gratitude,

[xx]

(This was written entirely by AI.)

 

Not all synchronicities are positive. Do be careful. Sometimes they create major learning lessons. An example that many people experience is meeting or manifesting a lover by synchronicity, only to discover the person is wrong for them. Initially they think that the synchronistic experience, or person, represents the road they should take at that moment in time. This is not always the case. You can manifest negative people and situation, so take your time when you get caught up in synchronicity.

Seventh-House ARIES: You tend to favor a mate who is self-assured, decisive and capable of leading - -more or less 'taking charge' of the relationship. You prefer to be sought out rather than to seek out a partner. Drawn-out 'preliminaries' may try your patience somewhat. Basically, you believe in getting on with the pairing rather than waiting unduly for something to 'happen.' You are prone to an early-in-life marriage, and to forming another relationship right away if the former one ends, for whatever reason. Look out for prospective partners who attempt to rush things to the point you're uncomfortable. Be especially watchful for any indicators of "dormant" abusive tendencies. Don't ignore the potential negatives of a hair-triggered temper, or even a slight inclination to be verbally or physically abusive. Never lose control of your right for determining what is acceptable behavior and what is not. Consider the ramifications and inherent negatives if your potential mate seems unwilling to discuss their past, especially regarding close associations. Refuse to be pushed into a union you regard as less than aboveboard, or possibly even threatening.

Your universe is changing, Aquarius. This is an important time of reaching out to others in a new way. As you rethink your presence on the public stage in the light of recent developments in your conceptualization of the world around you, there is a dawning that is taking place deep within you and there is no turning back. Vision precedes action. You are in many ways acting on existing professional goals, only with a subtle twist to the inside, as you begin to recognize the vital importance of hidden parts of yourself for everything that you say and do. With Mercury Retrograde in your career sector for the last part of this month, you are spending this time in an important process of recovering these missing puzzle pieces and fitting them back into your existing picture of how you operate. As the month begins, you are philosophically inclined, working through a process of reassessment and coming to greater consciousness surrounding your actual working presence in the world. There is a powerful visionary presence implied by Mercury, newly entered into your career sector, in trine with numinous Neptune occupying your sector of resources and values. Your finances might be somewhat nebulous at this time, but you are the richer for it, in terms of self-appreciation and a thoughtful new take on what you are truly up to in this life. The configurations of this month are challenging but also rewarding, as you begin to get the broader picture of what is going on, both within and also outside of you. As difficult as it might be to initially imagine, everything that is happening to you these days is part of a larger theme of interconnection. In this potent monthly cycle, Uranus and Pluto in square make up only one piece of the story, since Saturn, Neptune and even Chiron are also powerfully activated. Your co-rulers, Saturn and Uranus, are occupying rather different sectors of your solar chart, with Saturn in your fame sector, which presages public recognition for outer world achievement, and with Uranus located in your communications sector, making written and spoken productions paramount as you go through the changes that you, along with everyone else, undoubtedly continue to experience. It is clarifying to share your thinking with others around you, or with yourself in the form of journaling. Pluto is located in your sector of dream imagination and inner work, normally Neptune's realm, and from that inner standpoint continues to wreck havoc with your normal conception of what goes on beneath the surface layers of your personality. As Freud and Jung famously discovered at the beginning of the previous century, what is below consciousness, and relatively inaccessible to it, is a vast and numinous arena that is far more central to the affairs of the outer world than we are normally able to admit with our logical minds. This month gives you a magnificent opportunity to transcend this boundary and enter into the richer and stranger world of your unconscious process. As you do you are still responding to the exigencies of the physical world, which, with Saturn so strongly configured, is also symbolically quite active. It is difficult to be able to focus on both ends of this dyad but not impossible. The retrograde of Mercury later in the month through your sector of outer world involvement speaks to this issue, of being simultaneously inner and outer directed. With Chiron in strong aspect to both Saturn and to Uranus, as Pluto aspects them both as well, you are also likely to have the opportunity for old trauma from the past to arise for the purpose of enabling you to find greater self-acceptance with regard to these ancient wounds. These likely stem from early childhood, when parental mis-direction or problems with peers caused you in painful reaction to bury part of yourself away into the unconscious, where these pieces of your personality could have become walled away from the surface layers of your personality. Any movement toward restoring your conscious awareness to these parts of yourself will be richly rewarded as your inner exploration continues, and will make that first important movement toward their healing.

It came-- the year anniversary of my dichotomy. My fragmentation. My nuclear explosion.
I woke up with sobs welling upward, grasping my throat in their hot fingers. Nine a.m.; I was sleeping on that day. The fool I slept beside in that tent must have been especially high from his 6 a.m. methadone shot. An orange drink in a dixie cup.
But I am writing about MY yesterday, not last year's yesterday.
My yesteday, I woke up to ominous billowing sobs, but I also woke up beside a man. Not a fool; a wise lover. Instead of the drug-induced monologues about mystical messages from God and the cryptic stories of faceless dream girls thought up during hallucination-states, the wise lover is a man of few words when it comes to expressing verbally what love he feels for me. 
Instead of torrents of confusing but urgent words-- I slowly unpeel my wise lover like a fruit one eats in a moment of solitary bliss. Each time a layer pulls back, the taste is sweeter. I am surprised. (Is there a word for "happily dumbfounded"?) I am so accustomed to fruits which are just barely edible on the outside; their insides full of rot and decay. I am so ACCUSTOMED to methodically desensitizing myself into states of denial; suspending disbelief when I don't want to see the ugliness of something that has wrapped itself so tightly around my spirit.